you cannot not communicate

Communication is for me one of the most important things in the world. It is the reason why I am fascinated with what (and especially who) surrounds me and the best way I have to learn.

But it's not immediate, actually it's more like something I sometimes have to work hard on and it's much more than speaking the same language. Although this also helps :)

I don't speak Arabic yet, unless I can communicate only by saying shukran (thank you), kifek/kifak (how are you), saha (bless you), tayeb (ok), kunsadiqi (private joke, means "be my friend" and it's taken from a song) and I still don't know how exactly I'll translate "saudade", "Santos Populares" and "gente da minha terra".

It sounds nostalgic but I feel it as an unconditional part of settling in. The fact that I moved country, am away from family and friends, don't feel the seabreaze or go to the beach now that it's summer it's not because I no longer like it there or got bored, it's much more than wanting to change places or experience something different. It's about what one strives for and what one believes in. I believe I can do something here. So I am here. Despite the language barriers, realising that there are barely any Portuguese here or for that matter knowledge of where Portugal is or what it is known for (which can actually be an advantage) or that living in Jordan turned out to be a bit expensive. Tudo vale a pena quando a alma não é pequena.

So I'll keep trying, failing and each time doing better to communicate. Innovate in it and become loser and closer in my own time. Learning also about what and when to give in and what I won't give away ever. Not excluding or exaggerating any part of it, any part of myself.

Btw, this is not a photo blog. Although I will for sure post some pics here, there's facebook and so many other places that do just the same. Just so you know, coz to be honest I keep forgetting my camera. Might be because between the world and me I prefer not to have a camera lens. Or it just might be obliviousness.