decided

Birthdays have this impact on me, they make me think even more than usual. But because thinking is not enough, i came to some decisions, which I will struggle to keep maybe not only for one year like NY's resolutions but for longer... we'll see!

I decided that I won't allow myself being influenced by the laziness, my limitations and the longing for something different in doing what I initially wanted to do.

I decided that I will use my free time better and spend most of it on the sun, learning Arabic, travelling and being with my people here.

I decided to realize that I am not the best flatmate neither and it's so hard, it requires patience and some compromise to live with someone you are supposed to, not that you chose.

I decided that sometimes the best is to be fake and pleasant because a shared untruth sometimes is as best as it gets.

I decided that I will stop thinking I know what's best for me but keep my eyes wide open for the opportunities that could be.

I decided that as much as I like cats or even dogs, I can only stay indoor and take care of them for a while.

I decided that I miss and need home so it's ok to question your decisions and rethink plans, undecide... it'll come to me sooner or later.

I decided to realize that I care about what people think, but even so to keep on being as I am - how strange, awkward and none of your business it may seem.

I decided that nothing's irremediably lost but the fact is that we're just losing time that won't come back.

I decided that there's a limit to what you can compromise culturally speaking, then it makes no longer sense, because you might give in what is authentic in you - and people aren't allowed to ask that from you.

I decided that you can keep hope but illusions are an unnecessary waste of time.

I decided to admit that I miss you and maybe that's not a problem but the solution.